life

Yesterday in class my professor gave us a demonstration (using yours truly as a volunteer) on the magic glove technique, which uses a form of guided imagery and relaxation to reduce pain in blood draws, IV sticks, etc. It was really amazing. Apparently my hands were different colors when it was going on, which I guess means a difference in blood flow. She tested the back of her earring on my hands, and I barely felt it on my 'magic glove' hand, but definitely felt it on my other hand! It worked so much better than guided imagery experiences I'd had before, even in a class full of people crowding around to see it happen!

So much is piling up and I am just hoping to stay on top. I definitely cannot allow any of this to take me over. I am trying to take my assignments one step at a time and not get so overwhelmed that I'm of no use to anyone. I'm trying to just avoid personal problems that I cannot fix and get out of the situation as quickly as possible. I'm a bit afraid of how crazy things are going to be until the end of the semester but I know that making it through will be a testament for me that I can do things that are difficult.
And it is amazing to me that when I get so lost in what I'm doing, something pops up and reminds me how much I'm going to love my job when all is done. I think it'll be harder than anything I've experienced, but also it'll be so rewarding.

Things are getting hard for me on a personal level, in a couple of aspects of my life. I have possible opportunities to escape both of them, so please be in prayer about that.

On a sort of lighter note, a random guy friended me on facebook and started talking to me last night. Just in case any men are reading this at all, here's a top ten list of things NOT to do when you first talk to a girl, when you approach, and she feels you might be a bit creepy so is on the defensive.
10. Do not have only six pictures on your profile, all of them showing off your disgustingly molded muscular body-builder features. (It's like red flag number one for me.)
9. Do not call the girl you're talking to: an actress, a cynic, or a man-hater, simply because she may be being rude to the creepy muscle man who is talking to her out of the blue.
8. In trying to prove your motives are pure, don't throw scripture at her, misinterpret it, and then tell her that as a Christian she is obligated to trust you. (I'm still trying to figure out how that works.)
7. Do not call her out for judging you while refusing to admit you are judging her as well.
6. DO NOT ask her what's wrong with her when you find out she is 23 and has never been on a date (and I quote: "why not? You're cute, have a nice build, and seem interesting, so why hasn't anyone asked you out?")
5. When she lets on that she's getting a creepy vibe from you, don't take that as a signal to ask how far she's gone with a guy.
4. While calling her out on judging you, keep in mind the liberal dose of self-worship that's going on on your profile. And the fact that hot girls make up the majority of your friends on facebook.
3. When you find out that she's held hands with a "boyfriend" she had for a tiny amount of time in the seventh grade and that's it, do not say (quoting again) "Wow, I know only two other girls like you, and you're the only one under 300 pounds." (compliment city, my friends)
2. When you ask her about politics and she's appeared to be a strong, independent, and in this case combative woman so far, expect her to take the opposite viewpoint to yours. Especially when you argue your case so poorly. And don't extrapolate something like a historical reference without a source to back it up. Seriously. Momma didn't raise no fool.
1. When a girl asks you why you friend requested her in the first place and you say "I was interested in you" please be more specific. From chiseled muscle men like you, every word sounds like a come-on. (and please, COME ON!)

Seriously, I don't know why I kept talking to him. It was like a car wreck that I was participating in and could not stop watching at the same time. I dealt with this guy for probably close to three hours and it only stopped because I thought he blocked me. He didn't I guess, but I de-friended him this morning. Dudes, don't expect every Christian to be as conservative as you, and don't basically call them idiots or the devil if they take a more moderate, middle-of-the-road, everything-is-not-all-black-and-white stance. And don't you DARE judge my faith based on my suspicious reaction to a creeper who pops up on facebook chat. I think it can bring out the worst in all of us. And if you're going to ask a question or make an argument, MAKE SENSE! Gaaah!

To end it all, I had a very strange dream last night: I gave birth to a little girl, but when I woke up that next day, she had grown to be a toddler, and then an hour later she was a teenager, and then minutes later she was a grown woman my age (who looked like me but not like me). I was so scared that someone would come in and think I had done something to my baby when really she was sitting right next to me! The novelty of the dream made all the past day's interactions sound as ridiculous then as they are now, though when I went to sleep I was absolutely furious.